Thursday, March 22, 2007

Flying in formation

On my way to work today, I saw a flock of geese coming home. Definitely a good sign!! I smiled as I thought of the warm weather coming, and noticed one geese off flying on his own. How much harder it must be for him to do that I thought, when he could just be coasting along, in the protection of the flock. Interesting parrallel to life. Sometimes we find ourselves off on our own somewhere. There are times when this happens because we choose to go our own way. Or we isolate ourselves. Then there are times in which I find myself in. Times where it isn't you who has left the flock...but the flock that has left you! By that I mean that in my life a lot of people are moving. So I find myself starting over again...building relationships from scratch...not something I do extremely well. But I know ...that it is not good for man to be alone, and that we should not forsake the assembly of the brethren...and so, off I go flying to find a new flock!

Monday, March 19, 2007

Seek His Face

Philippians 3:8-9
"I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him."
No matter what our circumstances, even if we find ourselves feeling a little like Job, we must in all things keep our eyes on Him. The moment we look to our circumstances we always find ourselves drowning like Peter did when he walked out on the the stormy sea. (At least he got out of the boat!) There are times when we really feel like we just aren't going to make it. But God is good, if we keep our eyes on Him...there He is lifting us out of that drowning water...even though we had little faith. How amazing! Such love.
This is the day of new beginnings,
This is the day I turn the page,
Lord, You've filled my heart with singing,
and I wil never be the same.
Weeping may last for the night
But with praise I wake the dawn,
This is how we overcome,
I sing to You a new song.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Be like Children

God calls us to be like little children. He even states that unless we don't become like little children, we cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. Child-like faith, and innocence is something we should aspire to. Children (those who have been reared in a relatively good home) generally hope the best in people. They are quick to love, quick to forgive. They are innocent, and quick to believe. Remember that day, when you first were introduced to Jesus? That first day when you first gave your heart to Him? Such excitement filled your heart, such love, such trust. Each day of our lives should be filled with that kind of awe, that kind of passion. When I gave my heart to the Lord on July 18th, really was the first step to getting to know the greatest love of my life. After several suicide attempts, and an eating disorder that nearly took my life, God intervened, and I became like a child and gave my heart to Him. Each day, I want to live my life in a manner which shows the kind of passion that I had that first day. And so should we all.

Saturday, March 17, 2007


Some days even in the deepest of prayer, it's hard to sense God's presence. For some reason for usually is in a time of great need. But I know and believe He is there. There are days like today...where feeling His strong arms around me, would lighten the load. For I walk by faith and not by sight...
Here is an interesting thought...Most of us don't really have a great self-esteem. But if we have a variety of self-protection strategies to protect our heart...then truly we do care...we love ourselves to protect ourselves would not be so.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007


1 Corinthians 4:16-18 NIV
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."

I saw a friend yesterday who will be moving away soon. She is a close dear friend of mine, and for the life of me, I could not stop crying while we visited. Even though everything is changing around me, I know one thing which remains the same. One person who remains constant.
He does not change like shifting shadows,
He is the one who brings me out of all my sorrows.
He is El Shaddai,
the One who holds me when I cry.
He is El Roi,
the Lord who sees,
everything I've ever done or will do.
Everything that I've been through.
So I fix my eyes on the prize,
and I set my gaze on Him!

Monday, March 12, 2007

Revolving door

If we are to love with the agape kind of love, (God's unconditional love) the door to our hearts must remain a revolving door. People come and go from your life all the time. People will hurts us that is human nature. We can choose for those circumstances to make us bitter, or better. Personally I choose better. I want to be like Jesus, and although my first instinct when trouble is around is to run, hide, and close the door to everyone forever, the second thought close behind is the one that says: we are called to walk in love! What a hard task. My heart's desire is to walk in love, and have my heart's door be a revolving door, knowing that God will take care of the rest. Today was one of those days where tears just seem to flow from me...As much as I tried, I could not stop myself. And honestly, I guess that's ok. I am human after all...emotions aren't fact it's quite cleansing, and healing. It's a relatively new concept for me...but I'm ok with it!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

New Beginnings

Today was a day of new beginnings. In some respects it was the closing of old things as well. We have begun a new church today, and with that means saying goodbye to the old. I helped to lead worship in the service, and there was an excitement in the air. I am a worshipper through and through, and no matter what the circumstance I have learned that we must praise Him 'til we breakthrough, so that is what I am doing. This is the beginning of a new season in my life, and I must admit...I am entering it slowly! But praise God, I am entering. For I know that all things work together for good according to those who love God! And I am completely in love with Him! So until next time!